New Journey.....and then some

Today I'm starting a new journey. I know it's been done a million times, but this is my own personal milestone. I'm embarking on a new journey to become the person that I want to be, and not just what everyone else wants me to be. I'm seeking the path to a smaller, lighter, me. :) Yes, I know...woohoo...weightloss. Well, for some it's an on again, off again love affair of loving the new you, but hating the "calorie counting" that takes place. For me, it's not so much of that. Okay, so I've done the weight loss boomerang for quite a few years now, but this time, it's not really a weight loss, as much as a "I have to set a good example for my kids." If they see me eating right, they will....right? Logan is beginning to worry me. He's very much on the thin side, yet he's beginning to eat more and more. He's beginning to have 2nd and 3rd helpings of his dinner, and wanting more and more to snack on. Oh, I know the old adage, boys will be boys, but with the rate of childhood obesity in this day and age, it terrifies me that he's eating this way. I make healthy dinners, and he eats well, and gets his fruits and veggies in, but why is he eating SO MUCH!? My daughter is another thing that worries me. Kylee has never been a picky eater, and it really hurts me to hear Brian call her the "fat cheerleader". I was the fat cheerleader, and it's not funny to be called "Chubby" or "Pork chop" or "tubby". :( It hurts MY feelings when people say, "what cute fat children you have!" (Okay, they're NOT fat, and according to their doctor, they are both in the 30 percentile in weight, but chubby cheeks are deceiving.) So, in my efforts to be lighter, I'm hoping to teach my children portion control, and how to balance their hunger cravings with healthier choices.

I'm also beginning a new job next week. One that brings me closer to home, and my children. It is my hopes that I will be able to get my children involved in activities. My sister is a member of the YMCA, and I'm so looking forward to getting Logan involved in Soccer this summer. He is really into running, and balls, so I think this will fit his little hearts desire. As for my pretty ballerina...she wants to dance! She really liked watching the tap dancers on TV with me the other day, and she LOVES seeing ballet dancers and ice skaters. It is my hopes to get them both involved in what they love. This new job will help with that, as it's only 15 minutes from my home, and gives me time to be there for my kids.

I always thought I could be the "commuter" mom. The one that didn't mind working so far from home because the money was worth it. But, when I realized that I was not only not involved in my children's lives, but totally grumpy and mean by the time I got home from slaying the traffic demons, I knew it was time for a change. A change that would put me as mom again, and not as monster lady who was too tired to play with her kids. It makes me proud to be a mom, and my kids are my life, but when my career started superseding that, it was time to move on. So, hopefully this new journey is a blessing, and hopefully my children will know that their mommy loves them dearly, and wants to be with them, as a mother, not as an enemy.