I'm BAAACK!

Wow...I've been gone a long time. I'm so sorry, and I sincerely apologize to my one or two fans out there. A lot has been going on in my oh so boring life. I've recently gotten a new job....and so far I love it! I'm no longer in accounting for the first time in 10 years. Maybe it was fate that had my former boss telling me to piss off. I'm enjoying the new job, but trying to struggle to pay bills is simply not what I'm accustomed to. It's okay! I know it will be. I've taken up this thing called prayer. Yes, it's not new, but I've been a slacker in that department and decided I needed to have some one on one time with God. He looooves to listen to people...I wonder why so many people don't know that? So, anyway, I've been talking to him about life, and asking Him to guide me to his will, and you know what? I have a job! It's about 15 minutes from my house, and against traffic so the ride to and from is sweet!

So, I've been really bummed out lately. Of course the depression of being fired for the first time ever in my life, but from other things also. I've been very selfish lately, I think it's been for a good reason, but apparently not everyone thinks that way. I had a friend, we'll say..."friend" tell me that I am a self centered, egotistical snob, and that I don't care for anyone but myself. Well, that simply isn't true. Okay...not ALL of it is true. Yes, I openly admit I'm a snob. I want my kids in the best schools and I want a big nice house, and I like nice things. What's wrong with that exactly? Is it not okay to want the best for your kids? BTW, "BEST" doesn't imply rich...just good schools and a nice house. I grew up very poor, and I want my kids to have the very best in life. I wasn't priviledged like some of the kids I went to school with. My daddy never bought me a car, in fact, ever since I was 14 I bought and paid for everything myself, including dr. visits. So, why shouldn't I want the best for my family? ANYWAY....I lost my job, and fell into a depression, and I took it out on some people...mainly my bestest friends and my hubby and kids. Please tell me why it is that we take out our problems on the ones we love the most? So anyway....I realize that I've been self involved lately, and not a very "good" friend, but I take it to heart when someone says that I'm an ugly person....because I really try hard not too. I know I need to develope a thicker skin. I need to be able to say...Piss off...to those who hurt me, but my problem is I tend to hold a grudge for a LONG time, and when I get my feelings hurt it takes a long while to get over it. So, Needless to say, I'm no longer talking to "said friend". Whatever. I'm sorry if my pity party upset you, but I'm allowed to be self centered a bit right now.

On a lighter side....I'm adjusting well to my new career. I think I'll enjoy it, and I'm looking forward to growing with the company. I'm always an over achiever, and I LOVE moving up in the world. So, we'll see where I am 2 years from now.

So...highlights of my week. Monday...started new job. Friday Night out with some friends. Saturday Date with the hubby and Johnny Depp. Woooohoooo!

I have to say a special thank you to one of my very bbest friends, Rene for pushing me to blog again. I had forgotten how much I like it. I also want to say thank you to Leiann, Lori and Kisha for putting up with my crap and being wonderful friends. Thanks! Love you!